100 days in the hospital.
I'd be lying if I told you the walls weren't caving in.
Literally, we trip over things, run into things, knock little willowtree angels off the counter and break their heads off...cabin fever is intensifying.
There are days that I'm angry. Frustrated. Pitying myself.
And then I remember the day we came from Akron Children's to Cleveland Clinic. The reason we came was because the Clinic had Heart Transplant capabilities and ECMO, a machine that bridges the gap for critical patients, sometimes giving them time for a transplant...sometimes giving them time to recover on their own.
She was on a Bair Hugger, a machine used to control her temperature because her body couldn't do it on its own. I have yet to see any other kiddos in my time here on a bair hugger.
100 days in a hospital is a gift, when you were looking at funeral arrangements on day 5.
Chaia went into the hospital on a day in the 60s, with sunshine and mostly green leaves. She is going to learn to hate Cleveland weather when she gets out.
When Chaia went into the hospital, the Browns were 2-1...(sigh).
The other day, a nurse practitioner said resolutely that Chaia was a miracle.
But, in many ways, there are still more questions than answers. And there likely always will be with her.
Here's what we do know. God's fame is increasing because of Chaia's life.
And that is what we have prayed for all along.
Be very clear, we have asked God to bring fame to His name through this experience. If that means instant healing...bring it on. If it means gradual healing...bring it on. If it means no healing...bring it on.
So 100 days is a gift...because hearts are softening.
Ezekiel 36:26 is happening to more people than just Chaia.
And so I plead with you, don't waste the gift.
Cry out to God for rescue through Christ.
Do that thing you know you are supposed to be obedient with but have drug your feet.
Reconcile with that family member that you've been acting childishly or bitterly toward for too long.
Go meet your neighbors.
Hug your kids.
Read the Bible.
Serve the poor.
Go to Church.
Change Your World.
But for God's sake, don't waste your gift.