Sunday, November 6, 2011

Trust Him More. Love Her Less.

Well it is about 12:30 a.m. Monday morning and we are just getting back from the hospital where Chaia was resting well. She is to go all night without CPAP...which will make 24 hours of Hi-Flo oxygen with Chaia doing all the breathing herself. Then we will assess next steps.

There are talks of big steps this week.

Weaning Hi-Flo.

Weaning Milrinone (the blood pressure/heart medicine).

Beginning Feeds (either through the nose or via bottle).

Moving from Heparin to Cumadin.

Each step gives us both a sense of excited anticipation and a sense of fear in the unknown.

Each step in small or big ways can move us toward life or toward death.

And even though we have committed since day one of pregnancy to place Chaia on the altar as an offering back to God, to leverage her life for His glory, the temptation in my heart is to step in and take back the offering.

This week we have to channel our inner-Abraham and trust God more than we love Chaia.

Pray for this in us.

I'm going to put a few posts up over the next week specifically on the example of Abraham, so stay tuned for those. Also, keep sending the "Prayin' For Chaia" pictures in. You guys are awesome. We have about 50 entries in so far and you have through this coming weekend to get your pics in and I will show you what we got next Monday.

God wants you to trust Him more than you love ________ this week.

The hardest step might be filling in the blank.


Anonymous said...

Filling in the blank is indeed difficult. Only through the power of our one true God is it possible at all. Praise God for all that he is doing not only for Chaia and Jack, but in the lives of family and friends who are challenged every day to put their faith and trust in Him alone. Glory be to God!

Love and prayers, the McGurks

Joanne Sadlon said...

I am speechless, and "filling-in-blank-less" right now. What's the matter with me?

I think my answer must be "myself".
I hate to admit that, so that must definitely be my answer.

God bless you Ben and Shaina, and may God continue to protect and bless Chaia.

Kimberly Fisher said...

Trust and Obey...I have been singing the hymn for almost 2 weeks.

Anonymous said...

Not love her less...possess her less. Abraham did not love his son any less when he placed him on the altar. He just gave up ownership more. If my earthly father had said he had to love me less, I would have been broken in half. If he had told me he had to surrender to God's choices, that I would understand and honor. Your love honors the giver for the gift that is Chaia. Give her some of our love, too.

Joy in Kansas

Ben said...

love her less...than Him.

The alternative is idolatry.