Those who dream about what authentic Christian community could be or should be are often the biggest sabboteurs of what Christian community is or would be.
When I become so insistent that our community of faith is inadequate, it is as though I mark God's gift of community with a "Return to Sender" label and reject the grace he offers.
Dietrich Bonhoeffer...I hate you. (a.k.a. conviction)
So have you chosen to enter into God's gift of community or are you rejecting grace and blessing?